This is the first time that I have felt like writing in quite a long time. There are several reasons for that, but this morning I finally felt I could put into words all of the things that have been weighing on my mind. This is not some anti social media rant, it is more about the effects it can have on us. Social media is much more powerful than we often realize. It is not always a negative thing but we need to be cognizant of its power, especially on our subconscious mind.
Over the past year I have learned so much about myself and the world around me. I have traveled to new places and met so many amazing people. In fact if you look through my social media accounts, it looks like this year has been pretty spectacular. For the most part it has been, but what you don’t see is all the tears I have shed when I got rejected from my dream job, again. Or all the times I have been so stressed from all the pressure I put on myself that I just wanted to quit my job, drop out of school and move to the beach. But then I worry, what would people think about that? Obviously I did not do those things because it is not what I truly want. However, if it was, it really does not matter what other people might think.
We live in a world where we have instant access to what everyone else is doing. That can make it easy to forget that these are real people and they are not without struggles either. I am not suggesting that we should start sharing all of our troubles but that we should remember we are not alone in them. Seeing celebrities on TV can sometimes create a sense of jealousy but it is usually rather easy to separate those people from reality. Unfortunately it can be much more difficult to separate fact from Facebook. When I see people I know getting married, having children, buying houses, or taking lavish vacations, the feelings of jealous can be a little deeper. I sometimes lose sight of all that I myself have accomplished and of what my own aspirations are. What others are doing with their lives does not affect the quality of mine, it can only affect the way I feel about my life. And at the end of the day we only know what people choose to share.
I have had numerous conversations with friends of mine about these thoughts, this morning I listened to a little bit of NPR, and on my way to work I listened to an audio book I have been meaning to finish. What I heard as one of the last chapters began made me begin to believe that things really do happen for a reason. Those words were exactly what I needed to hear after the past week. It was also the final inspiration for writing this post today. The book reminded me that I can’t control everything and trying to do so will only create unnecessary stress and anxiety. I don’t know that I will ever be a total “go with the flow” type of person but I am starting to realize that sometimes there is beauty in the unknown. If everything always went according to plan, life would likely be pretty boring in all honestly. While I hope we all have goals to work toward and dreams to achieve, I also hope we can all remember to slow down and enjoy right now, because right now is all we have.
“I am an old man and have known a great many troubles, but most of them never happened.” – Mark Twain